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Jul. 14th, 2016 08:31 pm
robobees: (we are the lions.)
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So here's what you do.
Listen for the beep.
Leave some words.
I decide if they're worth it.


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Date: 2016-07-27 09:05 pm (UTC)
casperdisaster: (Lost and lonely in open water)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
Adele.

[Noah repeats the name carefully. He's not sure what he's expecting to get out of it - some rush of memory flooding in, some lost piece forming the big picture that lets you see the whole puzzle, just... something more.

There's none of that, though. It isn't fair to say Noah looks disappointed, not exactly. This is still more than he had before, it still means something, but the loss and sadness from that loss is starkly prevalent now, at the forefront of his mind. Some of the sorrow he carried with him as a lost soul shining through.

Is it even really possible to get through the stages of grief over a loss when what you lost was yourself?

Adele. There's no sudden rush of memory, no unlocking of the name of his other sister, the given name of his parents, nothing like that. But it does feel right to say, to think, and without any other context needed he feels he knows which sister it was as well. Some of that is from Henry, from Henry thinking of her. What little she exists in Noah's spotty memory is a frozen snapshot of a little girl, it's hard to meet that up with the young woman who spoke at Aglionby that Henry saw.

It's something. It's so much more than he had before.]


... Thank you.

Date: 2016-07-27 09:59 pm (UTC)
casperdisaster: (Life is silent the earth is calling)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
[Noah doesn't mean to make Henry sad, for the other to feel so much empathy for him that Noah's own sadness bleeds out and into him.

A small part of him is still selfishly glad for it though. To be noticed, to be cared about. It always means so much to Noah. He can't be saved, so the desire for saving and empathy for his loss is everything to him. Him and Henry are still new to each other, and while Noah has his own cheating reasons for having that instant closeness it's a bit unexpected to see it go both ways.

It's no surprise why Gansey and Blue care for Henry. Noah feels confidant that Adam and Ronan will be won over and endeared to him as well.

Carefully, Noah makes his way over to sit down next to Henry, hands fidgeting with the hem of his tee shirt before folding in his lap to keep them from moving, from fussing.]


...Will you ... could you tell me about it? If you have the time. I don't think I saw it since the beginning. I was always ... somewhere else.

[He's always somewhere else, back in Henrietta, even when he's right there with his friends.]

(Woo phone tag)

Date: 2016-07-28 08:24 am (UTC)
casperdisaster: (if we run or we hide)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
[Noah has to smile at the quip, even if it isn't the careless grin from before and instead something more somber, something colored with that well of deep sadness within. The touch is grounding and welcoming. Even being alive, being real again for… goodness, has it been a year now? If not then almost. Noah still sometimes feels like he could lose himself to time at any moment. Nostalgia is a frightening feeling when you literally have played jump rope with time.

The memories closer to his death are a little easier to hold onto, save for the ones on the day of. The actual act of dying. It's still a mess of feathers, of colors, all making it hard to tell what was dream that inspired it and what was the actual Raven Day.]


Oh, they were awful, I'm sure. Aglionby doesn't really have arts and crafts. They should though, it's good for the soul.

I think Whelk thought the whole thing was stupid.

[Shows what he knew, really. Raven Day went on longer than Whelk did. He was never good with the simple pleasures, which were mild and ambitionless Czerny’s specialty.]
casperdisaster: (Will you let me in?)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
[While Noah can't remember a lot of his human life, the little contextual clues leave him fairly certain of his former demeanor. Friendship with Whelk, for one. The main one. Sure they weren't close enough to die for one another, but they were close enough that a casual observer would equate them to Ronan and Gansey’s closeness now. No one stays buddy-buddy with someone like that and remains innocent, even if they were nowhere near as awful. Czerny was also callous enough to lightly ask Whelk if he was white trash on the morning he lost everything.

Ergo, asshole. Probably. Not terrible, maybe, not someone who deserved to die, but not kind. Not someone who would be good enough to be friends with Gansey and would the others.

Not someone who could have done what Gansey did.]


Thank you for looking out for him.

[Noah couldn't then. Piper, the demon, trying to hold together while finding his way back to Gansey’s beginning to complete the cycle, to start the cycle.]

It wasn't safe, all that. I think Gansey would say ‘safe as life’ though.

Date: 2016-08-24 05:50 pm (UTC)
casperdisaster: (Will you let me in?)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
[Noah's smile becomes easier as he listens to Henry, not quite crowding into the other boy's space but feeling comfortable with it none the less. Noah's always been that way since he's been alive again, though. Now that he doesn't have to worry about things like a lack of body heat being noticed or upsetting.]

Mmm. Gansey usually does the saving. Must have been a better opportunity than the petition signing to get into his good graces though. [That comes with a bit of a cheeky grin.]

Date: 2016-08-25 07:51 pm (UTC)
casperdisaster: (With no one left to blame)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
Oh, I know.

[The playfulness is doing a lot to cheer Noah up, to lift his spirits. Not that he was upset before exactly - he was so grateful at what Henry could tell him, but the happiness of that knowledge being given to him once more was paired with nostalgia, with the ache of loss.

The friendly teasing, the joking around, Noah might even laugh again.]


I'm very good with secrets.

[No you aren't Noah you're good with secrets when it suits you to be good with them, when someone needs to know something you rat them out in an instant you lying liar.]

Date: 2016-09-02 04:32 pm (UTC)
casperdisaster: (I think about time for fun)
From: [personal profile] casperdisaster
[Noah is deeply pleased to find friendship with Henry to be such an easy thing. Again, he's reminded of Blue. Like they had always been lifelong friends and it was just a matter of finally getting around to meeting.

Of course, Noah cheats a bit, he can't help it, but Henry at least seems willing to take the leap of faith with him. It's nice. So many people are guarded, and it isn't that Henry isn't, but there's still a sense of trust there.]


Yes.

[Because of course with either/or, Noah answers with a 'yes'.]

It depends on the secret. But if it's no one else's business, I'm good at keeping them.

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behind these two white highway lines
when the city goes silent
the ringing in my ears gets violent